Save Me, From My Nightmare

Chapter Four:

Shizuo gazed at Izaya who was in worse shape than the first time. This time Izaya seemed to be unconscious this time. The breathing mask covering his mouth and nose while the hot air seemed to fog it up before slowly disappearing. The heart monitor beeping to show that Izaya's heart was slow but steady. The sight alone was bringing Shizuo to the point where the tears would have started to fall down if it wasn't for the fact that he was trying really hard to hold them back. But yet he was grateful for his sun glasses to keep from having Izaya seeing him in such a state like this.

For some reason seeing Izaya in this state, it was just hard enough to watch. How could a bullet do something like this to Izaya? Sure Shizuo had been shot but he never felt it. So how would Izaya had felt being shot like that? It didn't make sense. "You should have been able to dodge it. So why didn't you?" Shizuo asked as though expecting Izaya to wake up and tell him what had happened. But it was no use. Izaya laid there, slowly breaking in and out as things seemed to remain silent but the heart monitor.

Before he knew it, Shizuo had gotten on top of Izaya's resting body and pulled him up with the hospital gown. "Damn it! Wake up Izaya!" Shizuo shouted as the nurses ran inside and started to pull Shizuo off of him. "Get off of me. He can't just lay there. I have to be the one to kill him. No one else but me!" Shizuo shouted as Shinra and Celty rushed into the room.

"Shizuo!" Shouted Shinra as he helped the nurses pull Shizuo off of Izaya's unconscious body.

It wasn't long before Shizuo was outside of the hospital working on his third cigarette. "Damn that flea. If I ever catch this bastard, I'll shove that pistol so far up his ass he'll be coughing out bullets." Shizuo replied as he was pacing around in a circle.

"Why do you care so much about who is trying to kill Izaya anyways Shizuo?" Shinra asked as Celty seemed to be typing on her little pad.

"Yeah, if Izaya is dead then you can go back to a normal life without him around." Read the message she typed.

"I have to be the one to kill him with my own bare hands. If I don't then, I can't be at ease." Shizuo replied as he seemed a little bit calmer. Shinra and Celty seemed to look at each other with a puzzled look on their faces, well Shinra's was best visible than Celty's.

"Is that really what you think Shizuo?" Shinra asked, which only caused Shizuo to growl as he looked at them with a pissed off expression.

"Just what are you getting at?" Shizuo asked with his teeth clenched.

"Well, could it be that you actually care for Izaya? After all, you have been coming here to check up on his condition more than anyone. We came only to make sure that you wouldn't pull something like what you did. Normally if you care about someone so much, you get angry and want to hurt who ever caused the one you love to get injured." Shinra started to explain as Shizuo grabbed a sign post, squeezing the base so hard that it came undone easily.

"I dare you to say that again." Shizuo threatened as he held up the sign post that had the hospital marking.

"What Shinra means to say is that there could be something more than just you hating Izaya. That's all he was saying." Celty typed on her device before holding it up.

"Get this through your thick skull Shinra. I don't have any feelings towards that flea that isn't hatred." Shizuo replied in a deep threatening tone.

"A-Alright. But it's just you are acting different since that night." Shinra replied as Shizuo threw the sign into the next building.

"Don't ever mention that night." Shizuo muttered before he started to head off. It was a night that he didn't want to remember. The blood, mixing in with the fallen rain on the cold concrete. It sent chills down Shizuo's spine just thinking about it. He could barely do his job right now and Tom was giving Shizuo the week to clear his head. Mostly because the people were going to the hospital more with some broken bones as Shizuo was losing his temperature.

It was a long walk home in which Shizuo desperately needed. "Hello Shizu-chan." Izaya's voice seemed to ring in Shizuo's ear, causing Shizuo to turn around his hands clenched, only to see that there was no one there. Normally Shizuo would be able to see Izaya easily, but not this time since he was all alone.

"Izaya." Shizuo grunted as he turned around to walk back.

"I see you are looking as dumb as ever. Still haven't grown up have you?" Izaya's voice seemed to echo in Shizuo's ear as he looked around and saw a figure of someone wearing a black hoodie with fur around the edges and at the bottom of the sleeve.

"Izaya!" Shizuo shouted before running towards the person, only to find a startled woman with cell phone close to her ear.

The cell phone was silver and shined as bright as Izaya's favorite pocket knife in the street light. "Oh, I'm sorry." Shizuo replied as he sounded somewhat disappointed as the girl ran away from him. "Damn it. He's still taunting me. I know he is. Damn that flea." Shizuo growled as he turned around and started to head back towards his house. Still, the voices echoed in his mind.

"Shizu-chan. Shizu-chan. Monster." The voices of Izaya echoed before Shizuo finally reached his apartment and slammed the door shut behind him, almost waking up the complex.

"Izaya." Shizuo muttered before he collapsed on the floor on his hands and knees. "Why can't I get him out of my mind? Why must I be tortured by him when I know he can't get out of bed?"  Shizuo was muttered to himself as his glasses fell to the floor and the tears that he was holding back seemed to finally fall. "Could they be right? Have I, fallen in love with that damn flea?"